*Sigh*
i am so frusterated with life right now.
it is impossible to work and go to school at the same time. especially if you are trying to work to live as well as go to school. i don't care enough about my homework, because i'm more concerned about getting evicted or whatever... i haven't bought groceries in like... a month and a half... if my parents didn't live in town, i don't think i'd eat... *sigh*
how do i do this? i'm gonna have to get ANOTHER job... meaning... i have to FIND another job... that will work with my schedule... which is gonna be next to impossible....
*sigh*
also, i think my landlord is trying to get ahold of me... (i SENT the damn check already, good god.) but, i don't know, because my phone is all interrupted because i need to pay the bill, and i literally don't know when/how i'm going to do that. i can GET calls... occasionally... but i can't MAKE calls at all. and i need to pay them before they COMPLETELY disconnect everything.
all day today i have just wanted to cry. and the fact that i am feeling so sad is making me feel even more sad, because i just don't know what to do... i don't think i've ever worked so hard to make things work... and had them not work at all. it drives me to the point of frusteration where i just want to sit by myself and cry. i'm even DREAMING about it every night. either that everyone comes and yells at me and everyone hates me because i can't pay them... or that somehow everything manages to get paid, and i'm all happy. either way i wake up all upset, because i'm thinking about how everyone IS going to come kill me if this stupid shit keeps up. *sigh* i'm gonna go eat something in hopes that it will take my mind off how much i want to cry.
it is impossible to work and go to school at the same time. especially if you are trying to work to live as well as go to school. i don't care enough about my homework, because i'm more concerned about getting evicted or whatever... i haven't bought groceries in like... a month and a half... if my parents didn't live in town, i don't think i'd eat... *sigh*
how do i do this? i'm gonna have to get ANOTHER job... meaning... i have to FIND another job... that will work with my schedule... which is gonna be next to impossible....
*sigh*
also, i think my landlord is trying to get ahold of me... (i SENT the damn check already, good god.) but, i don't know, because my phone is all interrupted because i need to pay the bill, and i literally don't know when/how i'm going to do that. i can GET calls... occasionally... but i can't MAKE calls at all. and i need to pay them before they COMPLETELY disconnect everything.
all day today i have just wanted to cry. and the fact that i am feeling so sad is making me feel even more sad, because i just don't know what to do... i don't think i've ever worked so hard to make things work... and had them not work at all. it drives me to the point of frusteration where i just want to sit by myself and cry. i'm even DREAMING about it every night. either that everyone comes and yells at me and everyone hates me because i can't pay them... or that somehow everything manages to get paid, and i'm all happy. either way i wake up all upset, because i'm thinking about how everyone IS going to come kill me if this stupid shit keeps up. *sigh* i'm gonna go eat something in hopes that it will take my mind off how much i want to cry.
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