uuuuugh. i just ate like... so much. two bowls of cereal, to sodas, some peanuts... some cheetos. a brownie, some pudding. i'm going to be sick. why why why is eating such an issue wiht me!?!? why can't i be like a normal person who just eats breakfast lunch and dinner!? i'm losing weight. LOSING WEIGHT. aaagh. i hate it when the girls at work call me three pounder. it's not like i try to look like this.


i really do feel sick. yuck.


i went to sleep at 1am. well, i (re)read trainspotting for like a half hour. then i tried to sleep. but i kept crying. and it was awful. so then i got up and went and ate everything in the house. and now i feel like i'm going to throw up. this really sucks. why can't life be easy?