i'm really rather upset... i wrote about it... alot... in my diary... and figured some things out... i'm not mad at abi, like i thought. which makes me happy, because i like abi. the person i am mad at... i'm very mad at. maybe i'm being irrational (i'm not known for keeping a cool head...) but... hate is the first word that comes to mind.
this pisses me off for MANY reasons. ... i had a lot of nice everyday things i really wanted to say, and i seriously don't care about them enough anymore to type them out... also, i have an english test tomorrow, which i wanted to study for... but since about.... 6:30, i've been worried or upset, and thus have written like... a novel about it in my notebook. missy has made me feel a little better, and i've stopped crying (i've stopped and started like nine times in the past few hours... like, i had stopped being upset, and moved on to the angry... plotting revenge and taking a hit out on people stage... when 'my girl' came on the radio (trivia question: what about that song makes me cry everytime it's on?) and i was liek "gaaaaah" so i spent like twenty minutes writing and crying with my doll) that was a long parenthesese... and i think i spelled that wrong...
at anyrate... don't anyone tell me that hate is a strong word, i should hate people. i'm a petty seventeen year old, i will hate whoever i damn well want to hate. and if you tell me that, beeeelieve me, i will rant at you for a good long time, and prolly ad you to the list of people i hate (there actually is a list. it's in the secondary notebook...) soooo. let's all hope that i calm down, and stop raging about... hopefully i'll find ben tomorrow, cry, flail about... tear up something (tearing is a good stress outlet *rips up a picture*) SO. in conclusion. i hate school, i hate some certain people. i feel awful... even though i dont' think i did anything...... and. i hate people. gah.
oh, and on a brighter note... i have stuart tickets for everyone who gave me money... though, you all owe me $1 more, because the mill raised the price. so, c'mon, fork it over. aaand... we have 17 people coming. so c'mon 17 times 1 is... 17, and i'm broke. so c'moooon! *deep breathes* stuart on sunday... it'll make me feel SO much better, you can't even believe.
this pisses me off for MANY reasons. ... i had a lot of nice everyday things i really wanted to say, and i seriously don't care about them enough anymore to type them out... also, i have an english test tomorrow, which i wanted to study for... but since about.... 6:30, i've been worried or upset, and thus have written like... a novel about it in my notebook. missy has made me feel a little better, and i've stopped crying (i've stopped and started like nine times in the past few hours... like, i had stopped being upset, and moved on to the angry... plotting revenge and taking a hit out on people stage... when 'my girl' came on the radio (trivia question: what about that song makes me cry everytime it's on?) and i was liek "gaaaaah" so i spent like twenty minutes writing and crying with my doll) that was a long parenthesese... and i think i spelled that wrong...
at anyrate... don't anyone tell me that hate is a strong word, i should hate people. i'm a petty seventeen year old, i will hate whoever i damn well want to hate. and if you tell me that, beeeelieve me, i will rant at you for a good long time, and prolly ad you to the list of people i hate (there actually is a list. it's in the secondary notebook...) soooo. let's all hope that i calm down, and stop raging about... hopefully i'll find ben tomorrow, cry, flail about... tear up something (tearing is a good stress outlet *rips up a picture*) SO. in conclusion. i hate school, i hate some certain people. i feel awful... even though i dont' think i did anything...... and. i hate people. gah.
oh, and on a brighter note... i have stuart tickets for everyone who gave me money... though, you all owe me $1 more, because the mill raised the price. so, c'mon, fork it over. aaand... we have 17 people coming. so c'mon 17 times 1 is... 17, and i'm broke. so c'moooon! *deep breathes* stuart on sunday... it'll make me feel SO much better, you can't even believe.
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