[::..The Optic Monologues..::]

[::..Tuesday, November 19, 2002..::]

tiiiime for a review.
..::MASSIVE HONKING SPOILERS::..

harry. yes yes yes. SO much better. he's got a grasp on the part. he did the most wonderful facial expression at the end with dumbledore, i think, but i can't remember where it was. it was just so refreshing to see harry emerge from the cardboard cutout in the last film. i think he's a keeper. and what a sexy voice. mrowr. though.... what about the fucking green eyes? jkr already said that his mother's eyes were going to play an important role in the books to come. and the people working on the film know the happenings of the next three books. would it be so hard to make them green?

columbus. i'm pleased...... his artistic vision is beginning to emerge, and we're finally beginning to get a feel the true drive of the story. his cinematograpy wasn't always bland this time around. the scene in transfiguration where the kids are having the chamber explained to them was good. i feel like the last movie was just a sketch of what it could have been, but now we're beginning to chip away from the seemingly simple plot and the heart of the series is beginning to pulse.
but all to late. i'm so glad he's stepped down. go alfonso!
i still think he's a shoddy director for this kind of film. like.... the home alone scream when ron and harry turn around and see the train behind them. that was so sad. the ending made me ill. and wtf is with the spider grabbing ron from outside the window? does that happen? i lent my book to someone. and, as the fappers were talking about, we think he may over-direct at times. watch reaction times next time you see it...... they're a bit delayed in a lot of cases. esp. tom felton..... i think it's a result of "stand-speak-react" directing.

draco. yum. yes, i know, i'm a perv. it's not so much him now, but what he's going to be. what can i say? i love the bad boys. provided he doesn't have prissy fabio hair like his dad. i'm the world's biggest fan of the One-And-Only-Good-HP-Fic, Cassandra Claire's Draco Trilogy. so i'm convinced that he can be different than his father. his "see you at school" line in Flourish and Botts was awesome. it almost seemed like a feeble/uncomfortable attempt at friendliness, which is what we had hoped it would be. i'll have to see it again tomorrow and watch his face. the whole movie he seemed less a villian and more just a simple brat. i actually saw disappointment and fear on his face a couple of times. let's say yay for actors having a range of emotions! yay! even if they are Bad Guys.
they seem to portray him in the movies less and less a one-dimentional antagonist and more and more an arrogant and uncomfortable child. so i'm praying that it's a setup for changes in him to come. i hope they're good, but it seems doubtful.

did anyone else think uncle vernon didn't do as good of a job? i thought he was a fan-fucking-tastic vernon dursley last year, but he didn't get to do much in this film. the kid that plays dudley is so beyond perfect, as is petunia. i love it. they're all so completely awful.

the ending. *sob* it was so awful. so saccharine. blergh. hagrid's acceptance by the school didn't make sense, because columbus didn't concentrate on his expulsion. anyone who doesn't follow the series wouldn't have understood that the kids greeting him like that would have meant a lot. but. yeah. cheese, anyone?

um. lucius. first of all.... apparently it's LOO-see-us, not LOO-shus. i thought that that, combined with his prissy dyed hair (and brown eyebrows) and the pretty black ribbon in his hair, he should be called lucy for short. he was as evil as i had expected.

i thought dobby was great. no complaints. just as how i pictured him and heard him.

snape. he was a bit flouncy this time around, wasn't he? we wasn't as composed and menacing. he was still marvelous. but what's with the jennifer aniston hair?

someone on the fiction alley boards complained that they didn't catch lucy-us slipping the diary into ginny's cauldron. um. no. it was a close-up shot of him obviously stick two books into it. and they also said that the water on the floor wasn't noticable. wtf? i thought there was too much water, if anything. so. yeah.

the scene in the chamber: yes. tommy likey. i wouldn't normally ever say this, but i'm glad he changed it. to an extent. i think it lasted too long and had a little too much (kick-ass) basilisk action, and that took away from the climax and drama of the scene with tom riddle. there was too much action, not enough talk. though i was so disappointed with tom riddle..... he was great himself, but i thought he was supposed to be like a faded, grainy photograph at first, and as ginny dies, he gains clarity. i think they might have tried to get that effect, but it wasn't very good. but that's just nit-picking. i liked him muchly.

music? tens of thousands of times better. almost acceptable. i'm unsure why we didn't *really* hear the pheonix sing, though. i heard the orchestra play the pheonix's theme, so i assume that was it. it was beautiful. as is hedwig's theme, although it was WAY underplayed in this movie. and the main theme was overplayed. it's catchy, but i don't think it encompasses the series at all.

now. who's ready for The Two Towers?

[::..Del dropped a spore at 2:42 PM..::]

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[::..Sunday, November 17, 2002..::]

why can't i see my blog......?

alcohol + low blood sugar + crowds + friend with razor blades = bad.

shower and vomiting =good

[::..Del dropped a spore at 1:58 AM..::]

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[::..Saturday, November 16, 2002..::]

ok. so about that last post. i seriously think i tripped for the first time. i don't even think i can explain how i felt, besides the fact that i felt like my computer desk was moving me around the room, and that there were two of my faces in the mirror. it was honestly really disturbing. my keyboard was breathing. and squiggling around. seriously.

suspension from school. i won't know until after this semester ends. fun. but..... i made pep band! hell yeah! it's whitney, chris, and i on clarinet. this is going to be so fun. paid fun, no less. with those sessy striped shirts. mmmmm-mmmmm. skank-a-licious.
and then i remember..... if i'm not here, i can't exactly be in pep band. goddamnit. [i]trouble breathing. trouble breathing. i can never have one headlight.[/i]

let's be honest. this has ceased to be a "feelings" journal, because i'm a coward and more and more people stop by my monologues. but i feel like shit. i feel like getting drunk. i am so goddamn sick of sitting in my room every single night. i miss tom. i miss jan and steve. i miss cory. i miss andrea. i miss having people who would ask you to go hang out at random, no questions asked. i don't recall ever having to pass so many tests just to FEEL SOMETHING. anything. and if you don't pass the tests, you end up like abernathy.... despised for no fucking reason at all. which is infuriating me. i hate girls. they're all so lame and high school. they're blonde and they tease and they giggle and whisper about good people. they judge people they don't know and they treat guys like toys. fucking stupid girls.
what was i saying before i got off an my rant? who cares. it's the same old shit. this year is feeling more and more like the previous, and retrograde is never a good thing for my fragile memory.

i would do fucking anything for a chance. me. not her. me. me me me. the sands may be running out.

[::..Del dropped a spore at 2:34 AM..::]

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[::..Friday, November 15, 2002..::]

i have star wars band-aids! yay! they're really cool. except not, because the big ones have, like, janga fett and a stormtrooper on them. so they're empperial band-aids. ambien kicking in keybord is moving. the llittle band-aids have yoda weilding a lightsaber. looking vindictive

there are two faces of me in the mirror and a minutes ago this compter tried to take me away. bedtime.

[::..Del dropped a spore at 3:13 AM..::]

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[::..Tuesday, November 12, 2002..::]

hello! i am in the motherfucking computer lab across from my hall. because some dickhead burned a pizza in the men's wing. stefanie is sitting next to me (that rhymes) and she's sleepy. stefanie is in a blue blanket and she is sleepy. i am on ambiean and can't walk. everything is funny. it's a party! in my pants!

as the flames rise higher and higher and the stench of burning flesh surrounds me, i leave you, my reader. i have to poop.

[::..Del dropped a spore at 3:33 AM..::]

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[::..Monday, November 04, 2002..::]

god bless JKR. she's announced that Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix has 38 (glorious) chapters. she'll tweak a bit more, and deliver the transcript to the publishers in a few weeks. then it'll be 5 more months.... so we're talking about probably april or may. which i thought i would be disappointed about, but i think i feel better just knowing when it will be. and they kept babbling about how it might be june, so it may even be sooner. whatever. i'm sure i'll love it.

but now i want to talk Chamber of Secrets and Prisoner of Azkaban. it's a known fact that i hate christopher columbus. ok. i don't hate *him*.... he actually seems like a very amiable man. but his directing makes me want to fall off the roof. Sorceror's Stone is a terrible movie. i'm sorry if you disagree. i'm not usually so blunt about art, but it's total shit. the music is total shit. there is nothing special, timeless, or even mildly creative about it. i can only think of two scenes that were really perfect. one is the Mirror of Erised scene, where we see Harry sitting in front of the mirror alone. the other is when he's alone in the courtyard in the snow, and hadwig flies up into the sun. those were well-done scenes. there are some more, but those are what comes to my mind. i love that Erised scene. but then i think of the terrifying CGI quidditch players to the bland cinematography to the fact that harry's eyes weren't green. i blame part of it on WB..... the Evil Empire. The Man. The Red Army. thank god he's stepped back for PoA..... my favorite book so far. i love alfonso and his version of "a little princess". it could have been total cheese, but it ended up being a beautiful and effective film. i haven't seen his most recent triumph yet, but i have faith in the man, and i hope he stays for the rest. if PoA has the same sensitive darkness as ALP had, then it's going to be a great movie. these books are honestly quite a challange to bring to film in a tasteful way, and i hope he does well.

[::..Del dropped a spore at 11:46 PM..::]

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the purple submersible llama is no more. i have to get a new car in a couple months or sooner, because the transmission is apparently tearing apart. fast. i seriously cried last night when my dad told me. i feel like i have to shoot old yeller or something.

[::..Del dropped a spore at 3:20 PM..::]

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[::..Sunday, November 03, 2002..::]

i just found a bunch of stuff in the internet about ambien as a hallucinogen. and here i thought i was crazy. turns out it's a shroom trip for lots of other people, too. a legal one at that. but it's probably more expensive than shrooms. anyway. yeah..... people are reporting all the same symptoms i've been having. colors melting. shadows moving. hearing things. sometimes seeing stationary objects move. sometimes occasionally hearing people talk, and seeing something move past the corner of my eye. i know it sounds scary, but by the time you start hearing/seeing things, you're too sleepy and dizzy to be frightened. and it rarely gets that weird. i was interested to learn that other people reported having 'conversations' with people in their heads, and not realizing it for awhile. it's hard to explain. you know how you think about scenrios with people in your mind? well, it's like that, only it's really involved, and you forget it's not really going on. and you start to reply out loud. and then you're like "what.......... the fuck?" i'm not bitching or anything..... it's rather enjoyable if you know it's coming. i've ran out of the stuff for now, so for about a week i'm gonna give melatonin a try.

[::..Del dropped a spore at 11:39 PM..::]

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