le sigh. i got my last night home off to a bad start.
i'm such a bitch. whenever i get frustrated or disappointed, i try to make someone around me feel guilty. i have no idea where this habit got started. it's probably rooted deeply in my childhood or something. meghan was supposed to call me today and come pick up the fridge i'm giving her. and she did neither. and i called her awhile ago to tell her what time we're leaving, since for weeks she's promised to come help me move in. and she punked out, because she for some reason is deeply frightened by driving ten miles beyond her house. and because she forgot to save up gas money. and i yelled and bitched and told her she couldn't come to wayne brady, and basicly made her feel guilty. and now, as usual, i feel guilty. let this be a lesson to you all: guilting begets guilt.
anyway. wayne brady. he's coming to eiu on october eleventh. which is also the day of a football game. so i get game/wayne brady/insane party, all on one night! and tickets are 20 bucks. score.
and i got my meds refilled, so yay for sleeping and concentrating. ooh, and i'm whitening my teeth with crest whitestrips, since i'm sick of my smile being so british.
so it's my last night home. i want to say something profound to sum up the summer of 2003. but it's just the same old shit.
[::..Del mooned at
11:53 PM..::] .................................................
i just called ms.ford. she said i can move in tomorrow. already i like this woman.
YES! wheee! i can mooooove tomorrow!
woah. tomorrow. must finish packing.
in other news, dad said i could take our toaster oven. score.
now i have to call dr.katz and try to get my drugs refilled. wish me luck.
[::..Del mooned at
10:22 AM..::] .................................................
[::..Friday, August 15, 2003..::]
oooh! kmart has a toaster oven for 15 bucks! score!
so, apparently this is now the "what del has for school" blog now. but seriously, that's all that's going on in my life right now. i should be packing a little more right now. but i'm not. i'm eating a popsicle and burning incense.
dr.hayslett is not replying to my voice mail or email. he's never in his office. nor is ms.ford. nor is anyone in the music office. nor is anyone in the mckinney office. is ANYONE in charleston right now? if you are reading this, and you are in charleston, can i please move in on the 19th?
can't wait to get back. can't wait for the frozen thomas hall ice cream. the drunk girls in boxes crawling down my hall, vomiting in the sink at the band house, the people fucking in my basement.
[::..Del mooned at
9:29 PM..::] .................................................
[::..Tuesday, August 12, 2003..::]
dudes! i found fabric! dark navy blue fabric, $1 a yard! all they had was 14 yards, so i hope that's enough. wheee! it's not as vivid a blue as i would have liked, but it's good enough for me. beggars can't be choosers. so it looks like the plan to do my ceiling is back on. now i have to go to eville tomorrow and buy another glow pen.
i also found a dark blue rug for my room. i so scored today. it's kind of a shitty rug, but i'm still pleased. it was only 18 bucks. it's seriously shitty. but dark blue. *giggle*
guess what else i got today? a phone! for 20 bucks! that's not a shitty 900mhz like my last one. i'm really pissed that it stopped working after a year. why is it that i have to buy a new phone every single year?
so, yes. i got everything i needed for school today for $55. not bad. i get so giddy when i'm thrifty. the whole reason i went out was meghan needed to turn in the rest of her housing deposit. this is all moving so fast. a month ago she had resigned herself to going to wabash, and now she's accepted into VU, has her housing deposit in, has her FAFSA in, and is working on paying for books. which is a real obstacle. we'll call up there and see if she can get a book waiver or something. otherwise we can scrape it together. but that would suck, because she still needs a lot of necessities for her room. and she moves a week from this thursday. so yeah. working on that.
so, wheeee, my room design is nearly complete. i want to look at buying some muslin to do some draping with my ugly plastic curtains, but we'll see. one week left.
[::..Del mooned at
1:48 AM..::] .................................................
[::..Sunday, August 10, 2003..::]
*nina*, just to ease your mind (since obviously you were losing sleep), i babbled the whole time about how i should call *nina* while i was in town, but we were on a tight schedule to get back to ottawa. and i didn't completely hate your town. :) just that little side i saw.
i am shower-y fresh. i will be showering in the tiny stainless steel cubicles of McKinney in 9 days. 9 beee-yooo-tiful days. dad and i haven't bought much for school, as i already have everything. i got a new fridge. i don't have to use that evil cube fridge anymore. the fridge that melts my ice cream while it freezes my drinks and cheese. this one is bigger.... i might even be able to fit a pizza in it. i got a ivory linen curtain for my closet for 15 bucks at walmart in evansville. i'm v. pleased about this. the plans to make a night sky out of my ceiling are failing. apparently i'll need ~15 yards of fabric, so unless i can find some blue fabric for one dollar a yard, i'll have to settle to paint stars on my ceiling, a la devin. a few weeks ago, i got a chinese globe lantern from target. it's ivory as well - it was going to be my moon. it still will be. but i'm just slightly discouraged about the navy sky. i even have a glow paint pen. hrmmm - what else did i buy for school? i got a PotC poster off of ebay that's rather nice. oh, i got a dish chair. oh, and a buttercream candle and tons of nag champa incense.
"is that allowed in the dorms?", you ask. my reply is - no. but no one really cares, usually. i found out that my RA this year is the same RA i had my freshman year. i don't remember her being a nazi about anything. i'm so sick of rooming next to the RA. next year i'm certainly getting an apartment.
[::..Del mooned at
3:14 PM..::] .................................................
[::..Tuesday, August 05, 2003..::]
i realize i haven't posted in ages.
what to update? hrmmm. five viewings of PotC. has rekindled my love of 'fic. am busily writing/reading, including some HP 'fic that i gave up on ages ago.
went to devin's this weekend for riverfest. got the best belated birthday gift ever - a jolly roger flag to hang in my room. brilliant. i couldn't have been more pleased if she had gotten me my very own ship. i took my first trip through the chicago suburbs, as we went shopping in naperville saturday afternoon. wow. sorry to all of you who live in that area, but i found it rather horrifying. i've never seen so many houses. houses completely identical, and they go on forever. it's like some nightmare out of The Giver. then we get to fox valley. jesus christ. there were no shitty cars in that huge parking lot. no old trucks, no banged-up novas, no rusty old cars. all shiny new SUVs and sports cars. who needs all those stores? every turn we made, i expected the commercial district to end, but no. more stores.
but i can't really criticize the capitalist machine in naperville, because i bought a shirt that says "mary is my homegirl" at the mall, and a new pair of chucks. i had that one old pair many of you remember that were beaten up pretty badly. those shoes went to NYC, to chicago, to ag days with me. may they rest in pieces. but i bought an identical pair last year, and they hurt my feet for some reason. but these new bright blue ones don't. and it just occured to me that i'm talking about shoes.
must get out of this town.
anyway. riverfest. 'twas fun. we saw a blues brothers cover band, and did some espionage work in her house.
memo to self: NEVER go home for the summer again. i only have two weeks left now, and i'm losing momentum instead of gaining it. so much to get done. so many bridges to mend. i've been seeing people i haven't seen in ages and whatnot. though i haven't seen andrea in at least two weeks. she's never home when i go by. ryan's still looking for a job. i only have two days of class left, but those two days are excruciating. i can't force myself to do the homework anymore, nor can i force myself to wake up at seven for such a mindless class. i should be preparing for it now by either sleeping or doing homework, but i'm not. i'm sitting here reading idiotic PotC 'fic, naked from the waist down. because i'm so bloody lazy, i refuse to go downstairs and find some underwear. i think i'll take my drugs and just go commando tonight.
savvy?
[::..Del mooned at
10:25 PM..::] .................................................
[::..Monday, July 28, 2003..::]
last night. Indy. big drum corps competition.
that was a night to remember. cavaliers lost to blue devils. their first loss in year. color me stunned. and pleased.
phantom's sound was incredible. their drill was a little sloppy, and i hope they're out there fixing it, because the music is truely fantastic. i loved it. and their uniforms are very impressive in person. they need to polish the show visually, and that's literally my only complaint. when the CD comes out, it'll be the first show i listen to.
my boys in madison jumped up a spot from san antonio. i'm quite proud of their leap from the pits of hell. i sometimes feel that corps ballads lack a decent melody, but i love the ballad. i would have liked to hear more of that sizzling madison brass. i would have liked to hear a lot of the oldschool madison style, but i won't be too critical of the comeback kid.
i really enjoyed the crossmen. they got some big-time crowd appeal. i know that judges don't judge on crowd appeal. but really. that was a fun show.
cavaliers. yikes. congrats on the winning streak, but this is a long-overdue defeat. they can go out there and rehearse that show until their feet bleed, but i think the show itself is the problem, not the execution. but reading the caption scores, obviously the judges and i feel differently. i didn't think the cavies so much did *badly*, as the BD had a more appealing show. this was the first time seeing their show, and i really did keep an open mind. and i do have nice things to say. the drill being it... the drill was very innovative, and doubly difficult. i was [b]very[/b] impressed by that aspect. my main complaint with them the past few years has been that the music to me has been completely deviod of any passion or soul. it's flawless and very difficult, but has never made me [i]feel[/i] anything at all. i'm trying to remember, but i can't recall a good or bad thing about the music. wait, yes i can - that soprano solo flopped a bit. *shrug* maybe he was having a bad night. but i can't remember a bit about the overall music, and that's not good. and there was no bang at the end. it's cool to try new things, and i like that aspect of them, but that was not a wise decision. so, yes. overall, an interesting show, but not really worthy of first. whether they claim first at finals or not, who knows. second's not such a bad place to be.
[::..Del mooned at
12:13 AM..::] .................................................
[::..Wednesday, July 23, 2003..::]
You are... 'Wait, this is supposed to be a punishment?' Yeah, I'm a little confused, too. Stuck on a beautiful deserted island with a shitload of rum and Captain Jack Sparrow... What's not to like?! If you want to leave this place, you are CRAZY!
